Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Internet Addiction: Why We Simply Can’t Stop

Today I realised something. I am addicted. Not just to chocolate, which I unfortunately can only eat on Saturdays, but also to something else: the internet. Up until now, it didn’t bother me so much, since I know I am definitely not the only one. But lately I began to realise a thing that I didn’t like: we don’t get addicted, we are made addicted.

Let’s just start off with how I came to realise I was addicted. From the moment the computer arrived in our house, my younger brother and I loved it. We played simple games like the Lion King and Disney Villain’s Revenge. When I went to high school, my parents decided I really needed a computer of my own. My father always worked for computer companies and still does at this moment, so we got new computers with discounts. My brother eventually got one of his own too, as did my mom, so we all had our own computer and we didn’t have to think of the others. I managed to keep doing my homework, without getting distracted. But through the years, internet grew, as did my computerknowledge (of course nothing compared to my brother’s, who is a computergenius). My interest in the internet became bigger and I started spending more and more time on it. But that was nothing compared to a big moment in my life: I discovered Lolita.

Wow, didn’t that sound sinister for a moment? But I’m serious. Every day, when I come home from school, this is my routine: I put on the computer, check my blog, check my favorite blogs, check their favorite blogs, sometimes check their Tumblrs, check Angelic Poodle, egl_comm_sales, Daily Lolita, EGL, Closet Child, Angelic Pretty, Baby the Stars Shine Bright, Angelic Pretty Paris, Baby the Stars Shine Bright Paris and some of my favorite LiveJournals. This can take me more than an hour or even two! Even right now, I’m writing a blogentry, when I should be writing an assigment about a book I just read. Is this addiction? I think so. It certainly feels like it.

Now, you won’t ever hear me say that the internet is a bad thing. I can’t tell you how grateful I am that I can look at other Lolitas, talk to them and ask them questions. Without the internet, it would be nearly impossible to buy Lolitaclothing, unless you travelled to Japan.

But something hit me a couple of weeks ago. I came home from school and put on my computer to start doing my homework. Somehow, the internet was being annoying, working for five minutes to only throw me off again. I was panicking a little: I had so much to do! I decided to do the homework that didn’t require internet first, when I realised I didn’t have any! All my homework had to be done on the computer! Then it hit me: I’m not even 18 years old and I can already say ‘When I was younger, things were so much better!’ When I was “small”, teens didn’t have to write huge assigments, because the computer wasn’t a part of daily life yet. The internet actually changed my complete life. I work incredibly hard to keep up with my work and I almost never have free time. I can’t enjoy my holidays, because of homework. And in a way, it's the computer's fault: teachers give us big assigments, because we can type and look things up, but it still takes hours to do it! We have to use the internet more and more. I even have to go to a website to check my grades, without even having seen the test I made!

This is also the case with many other things. Commercials tell us to visit a website, banks make us take care of our money using the internet, jobs require computerskills. We have to develop ourselves! They make us addicted, we have to. We can’t stop. There is no way. We are forced to being addicted.

Wow, this turned out into a bit of a heavy entry. I hope it’s not too much..? Oh, I apologize for my bad painting skills on the picture. XD I just needed a Lolita with computermouses to add some love! <3


  1. Yeah that is basically my internet routine too, plus more. Although my addiction has gotten worse since I've been out of school.

  2. There has to be balance, I think. Because we have the opportunity to connect with people from all over the world (look, here I am, an American girl commenting on the blog of a Dutch lolita [or that's what Google tells my ignorant American brian the language in the sidebar is...]!), we also have the added stress that comes from the connection. We're given more difficult assignments simply because we CAN be, and anyone who's enver taken a computer class is at a severe lack in terms of getting a job. I think it's a give-and-take - we have to take the good along with the bad. I've been worried about internet addiction for years in myself, but you're right - it's a fact of modern life. We can't escape it unless we become hermits or something.

    (Also, don't worry - ofr me, my assignments all got a lot easier when I went to college :P)

  3. I am internet-addicted too! I need to check LJ and blogs and facebook and Plurk and Tumblr and write my own blog, and it is so much!

    Trying to limit yourself to a certain amount of time to use the computer every day can help you do more things

  4. Yes, the internet is a pretty big addiction nowadays.
    However I wanted to say that large homework assignments have always been traditional. I remember before having the internet was a common thing (God that makes me feel old) we would just have to go to the library to look things up. Our teachers wouldn't take excuses!

  5. @ April
    Haha, oh dear, even more? I can imagine, more free time (I presume).

    @ Miss Lumpy
    Wow, yes, I am Dutch! You're good! =D (I hate that stupid side bar, I wanted it in English!) I agree on the balance. And I can't wait to pass my exams! XD I'm so through with school.

    @ Sparklewolfie
    I know! T_T But I can't even think of missing something! I'll try to give myself a certain amount of time, maybe it does help after all.^^

    @ Raegan
    Yes, I know I wrote it down in a different way than I meant (yay for trouble with English on those moments -_-). Of course I know that big assigments have always been there (teachers MUST torture), but they certainly became bigger at my school than in the past. My parents often say that they worked hard, but the things I have to do are just ridiculous. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying high schoolers work way harder than... well... the past generation? XD
    And it doesn't make you old (XD), it just shows how fast the internetworld is. ^^